“If a man would persist in his folly, he would become wise”
– William Blake
It takes a hell of a lot to overcome society’s indoctrination; which is akin to climbing out of a bucket of slime. Once you finally make your way to the rim of the bucket, be careful who you reach down to help up, lest they drag you back down into the slime. This is why the Left Hand Path is a lonely one. We have all been burned by those who proclaim to be something they are not; self proclaimed Christians to those who identify as Atheist – it doesn’t matter. The only solution is to take a lesson from the mountain goat who independently climbs to the highest peaks, leave the unworthy behind and focus on our own ascension.
Once upon a time, my programmed belief system turned me into an automaton designed to serve the church. But even with heavy indoctrination, I recoiled at those in the church who claimed to speak directly with God, and to have some special knowledge of what ‘He’ wanted. The absurdity of this was only overshadowed by the notion of original sin and the rapture. So I began to see the Bible as a mish-mash of confusing mythology not to be seen as prophecy or history.
Back then I felt my religion slowly stifling my self-esteem as I was being smothered with ubiquitous guilt trips and admonitions; most notably, warnings against educating myself. As I was continually told to stay away from certain books, I was discovering a whole new source of information on the internet. A video called The Naked Truth was the catalyst for intellectual and spiritual awakening which resulted in my renouncing all religion. At that time I was so angry about being deceived and subjugated for the better part of my life that I vowed never to let anyone control my thoughts or actions again.
It was an exhilarating experience to renounce my slave religion and free myself of the guilt and the pressure to believe in someone else’s fairy tales. I was hungry for knowledge and read every esoteric, occult, and historical book and blog that I could find. At one point, I surfed into a blog that pointed out the sexual symbolism of the snake and the apple in the Garden of Eden, and another that explored the idea of Lucifer as the serpent in the garden whose goal was to enlighten the humans by feeding them from the Tree of Knowledge. That’s when I realized my sentiments were with the serpent, gaining knowledge…. which is akin to becoming like gods.
First and foremost, the Left Hand Path to me is about honesty, integrity and taking responsibility for your own spiritual and intellectual evolution. It holds me to a higher standard of behavior because I have no ‘god or devil’ to blame my inadequacies on. When I screw up, I can only blame myself because there are no scapegoats in my belief system. Lucifer/Prometheus/Lilith, to me, are an archetypal figures who inspire us to seek and share knowledge in order to evolve into better people; to lose the slave mentality and hold ourselves accountable for our own actions. To me, this is the only way to enlightenment.
Losing the slave mentality and embracing responsibility for my own actions has inspired me to serve my community as a Child Advocate and a nurse, and to host two educational events. It continually inspires me to push myself harder, step outside my comfort zone, and take risks. Sometimes I win and sometimes I get slapped down, but either way, I know that my experiences are lessons to be learned. If I wanted to play it safe, I would have stayed with my slave religion.
My Left Hand Path philosophy has taught me that fear is a liar and it will keep you stagnant. We are all going to die at some point so why be afraid of death? Fear of the unknown seems to be the biggest trap there is. Those who can get past that, can do pretty much anything they want with their lives.
I’m no longer afraid of failure since I have experienced it so many times that I know how to pick myself up, brush off the negativity and move on. Failures are lessons, but they are also tests. How you handle failure is a demonstration of your resolve, your character, and inner strength. Left Hand Path philosophies are not popular with the mainstream so you won’t get much sympathy or support unless you are exceedingly honorable and empathetic toward others. People sense what is genuine and one who takes responsibility for him or herself and treats others with compassion and respect is the embodiment of honesty and sincerity.
I would like to add that Left Hand Path philosophies are unpopular for a reason and they will never become accepted by mainstream society for that very same reason. That reason is simple: human beings for the most part, are lazy and the vast majority of them would rather watch TV than read a book. Most humans are not leaders; hence, they prefer to be led. This is why televangelists and politicians are so easily able to fleece their flocks.