Embracing Both the Light and the Darkness
“If a man would persist in his folly, he would become wise”
– William Blake
It takes a hell of a lot to overcome society’s indoctrination; which is akin to climbing out of a bucket of slime. Once you finally make your way to the rim of the bucket, be careful who you reach down to help up, lest they drag you back down into the slime. This is why the Left Hand Path is a lonely one. We have all been burned by those who proclaim to be something they are not; clever sheep and wolves in sheep’s clothing. The only solution is to take a lesson from the mountain goat who independently climbs to the highest peaks, and focus on our own ascension.
Once upon a time, my programmed belief system turned me into an automaton designed to serve the church. But even with heavy indoctrination, I recoiled at those in the church who claimed to speak directly with God, and to have some special knowledge of what ‘He’ wanted. The absurdity of this was only overshadowed by the notion of original sin and the rapture. So I began to see the Bible as a mish-mash of confusing mythology not to be seen as prophecy or history.
Back then I felt my religion slowly stifling my self-esteem as I was being smothered with ubiquitous guilt trips and admonitions; most notably, warnings against educating myself. As I was continually told to stay away from certain books, I was discovering a whole new source of information on the internet. A video called The Naked Truth was the catalyst for intellectual and spiritual awakening which resulted in my renouncing all religion. At that time I was so angry about being deceived and subjugated for the better part of my life that I vowed never to let anyone control my thoughts or actions again.
It was an exhilarating experience to renounce my slave religion and free myself of the guilt and the pressure to believe in someone else’s fairy tales. I was hungry for knowledge and read every esoteric, occult, and historical book and blog that I could find. At one point, I surfed into a blog that pointed out the sexual symbolism of the snake and the apple in the Garden of Eden, and another that explored the idea of Lucifer as the serpent in the garden whose goal was to enlighten the humans by feeding them from the Tree of Knowledge. That’s when I realized my sentiments were with the serpent, gaining knowledge and becoming like gods.
First and foremost, Luciferianism to me is about honesty, integrity and taking responsibility for your own spiritual and intellectual evolution. Luciferianism holds me to a higher standard of behavior because I have no ‘god or devil’ to blame my inadequacies on. When I screw up, I can only blame myself because there are no scapegoats in my belief system. Lucifer, to me, is an archetypal figure who inspires us to seek and share knowledge in order to evolve into better people; to lose the slave mentality and hold ourselves accountable for our own actions. To me, this is the only way to enlightenment.
Luciferianism has inspired me to serve my community as a Child Advocate and a nurse, and to host two left hand path events. It continually inspires me to push myself harder, step outside my comfort zone, and take risks. Sometimes I win and sometimes I get slapped down, but either way, I know that my experiences are lessons to be learned. If I wanted to play it safe, I would have stayed with my slave religion. Luciferianism has taught me that fear is a liar and it will keep you stagnant. We are all going to die at some point so why be afraid of death? Fear of the unknown seems to be the thing that traps people. When we can get past that, we can do pretty much anything. I’m no longer afraid of failure since I have experienced it so many times that I know how to pick myself up, brush off the negativity and move on. Failures are lessons, but they are also tests. How you handle failure is a demonstration of your resolve, your character, and inner strength. Luciferianism is not a popular mainstream philosophy, so you won’t get much sympathy or help unless you are exceedingly honorable and empathetic toward others. People sense what is genuine and Luciferianism is the embodiment of honesty and sincerity.
These days I have a day job which entails a lot of travel, and when I am home, I focus on family, music and writing. Currently, I am working on an anthology titled “The Blessed Trinity” which includes uncensored dark fantasies and twisted fairy tales. Many have been submitted by renowned authors who requested anonymity due to the nature of the work.
Some of my own work can be found in the following publications:
Lucifer – Light of the Aeon by Diane Narraway
Qliphoth Opus V “Devouring the Draconian Flames” by Edgar Kerval
Noxaz Volume II – The Pylon of Fire (The Oracle of Seth) by Edgar Kerval
The Pop Culture Grimoire 2.0 by Taylor Ellwood